i don't wanna grow up

Currently listening: "Coleman Stove" By Jalan Crossland From 'Moonshiner'

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Adam posted on his blog about all the shit that he has to do before he can graduate...and it got me thinking about all the shit I have to do before I can even move on to the next year!

• 3-5 page paper for history on a book read outside of class
  
• 1,000 word essay on the effects 9-11 has had on politics and public policy
• 5 page Review of Literature for Theory of Reading
• 3 lesson plans for Health
• 1 portfolio (with tons of stuff in it)
• and probably something else that I've overlooked...

And I had to pay $45 in parking fees today so I can register in the next couple of weeks. I can't believe there's only a month of regular classes left, plus finals week. ARG! I thought school would never end, but alas...it's getting closer, and I'm getting farther and farther behind. I'm starting to get Sundays off now because I'm working up at the service desk, so hopefully I'll be able to get some shit done, plus I don't work tomorrow night.

On the plus side, things with Aaron and I are going really well and I think about Wes less and less as time goes by. It's weird to think if Wes hadn't broken up with me on a Wednesday, I never would have met Aaron, 'cause Wednesdays are the nights they all go out for a drink or two. Oh well, enough of that, I have to get to work.

when're we ever going to find out???

So we talked to the boys about the freaky lady in the victorian house, and they decided that they didn't want to deal with it, either. So we thought it was going to be just the townhouse, but then Cody found something even cheaper that we might look at later tonight or tomorrow. After the new episode of Lost is over, of course. Not sure what's going on, but I'll let ya know. Forgot to take pictures. The lady at the victorian house freaked me out and followed us around like a puppy dog. I was scared she'd smack me or something.

The last month of school is going to be very overwhelming, I have decided. So I probably won't be on my computer as often as I have been lately. I have a lot of papers that are due at the end of the month, a class that JUST started yesterday, and it seems like we're going to have a lot of busy work in it, among finals. I'm going to have to lock myself in the library, I think. Jeez. This sucks.

ch-ch-ch-ch-changes

Okay, plans may have changed. I looked at both the houses, and the lady who owns the Victorian-style house is very anal about EVERYTHING. White carpet means we'd have to take our shoes off all the time. The place ALWAYS has to be clean. She does not like college students, and has not had good experiences with them. No partying. No touching the wood-burning stove. She would prefer a family as opposed to 4 college kids living there. She's very touchy about everything, and foreign, so hard to understand. But we figured out she doesn't like college students and she would probably be checking in on us every few days, especially if there were more cars than usual parked outside.

Then we looked at the townhouse, and it's smaller, but a LOT less per month, and the lady there seemed really cool. She just let us wander around and take a look for ourselves, whereas the other lady gave us a very formal tour of the house, making us start at the front door, even though we entered through the back door. We wouldn't have enough furniture to fill the Victorian house, anyway, and the townhouse is a lot closer to campus. I really think we're going to go with the townhouse, which means I need to give my landlady my notice when I pay this month's rent. I'll pay the whole thing, obviously, but probably will move out halfway through the month. Not a big deal, though, with as much money as we'll be saving. I probably won't even have to quit Kmart if we're saving that much money.

But I just wanted to post that, hopefully it goes through because I've been having a hard time with Blogger this morning.

finally, the picture!

K, here's the long-awaited picture. Kinda hard to tell 'cause I have the big hoodie on, but I'll get something different. Dad took this picture while I was home for Easter break right before we went to church.



Also, Jill's boyfriend and his friend have found a couple of houses that we can perhaps live in over the summer, and even longer, because Cody, BJ's friend, won't have to move out at the end of the summer like Jill and BJ are going to do. It'll be cheaper than what Jill and I would pay per month here in this building, but not as close to the school. But if we're saving that much money, I wouldn't mind getting a parking pass and driving to school. Plus, if we get a house, we might get to PAINT! I love painting, and if we can...I think stripes are in order.

Jill and I are going to check it out today after my Health class gets over around noon. Today is the first day of class, 2/3rds of the way throught the semester. It's weird having to be somewhere on a Tuesday (or Thursday, for that matter) after not having to do anything the rest of the semester. Oh well. It's only for a month. Which means school is almost over for this semester. Which means I have some papers to write. Crud. Anyway, I gotta get ready for class. Woo hoo! I'm going to take pictures of the houses today when we go.

Also, Blogger is being dumb this morning, and it has taken me several times to try to post this. Oh, and this template, the springy one, is not going to last too long. I found a really pretty Devil's Tower template that I like a lot, but it requires a lot of tweaking and saving pictures, so I'm going to be working on that in my free computer time. It's pretty cool.

can't make up my mind

Yet again, another new template. It's actually the same template as my photo blog, but I really like it and think it's pretty and somewhat appropriate for the season, considering we just got a bunch of snow, but it's Easter. Speaking of Easter, my cat turned 15 years old today. Happy birthday, Smokey.

Hopefully this works on Exploder. I don't see why it shouldn't.

Easter Break

Well, I'm home for Easter break, and so far it's been pretty good. Got a lot of compliments on my haircut from people I haven't seen in a long time, including a good friend from high school/church who I haven't seen in a couple of years, so that was really cool. It's been nice to just sit home, relax, and watch movies with Mom. We saw "Robots" at the theatres on Saturday, then watched "Monty Python and the Holy Grail" when we got home, and THEN we watched "Lord of the Rings; Return of the King" the extended version tonight. Wow, long four hours. I think I dozed off and on through the first hour 'til there were some battle scenes.

Dad's sending me home with 5 pounds of ground beef, which is like, 10 meals for me, some more pork chops, potatos, leftover lasagna from Easter dinner tonight, along with some french bread. YUM! I won't have to buy a lot of groceries for a while, which is good because I'm so freakin' broke this pay period.

I had more to say, but I seem to have forgotten it. It was actually kinda interesting, too, I think, but then Mom started watching this new show on ABC called Grey's Anatomy, which is really good so far. Oh, and Wednesdays on ABC are going to be awesome. Lost is all new, and it looks great!

Oh, I think I'm going to switch to a different template (again), because as much as I love this one, it doesn't work on Internet Exploder, and I can't figure out for the life of me why. Since most people use Exploder and don't bother to download Mozilla Firefox (it takes THREE CLICKS), I guess I'll go back to something that's compatible with Exploder. *sigh* Template searching sucks.

random bits of news.

So my sister came to Spearfish on Wednesday, we went out to the bars that night with Aaron and his friends, got really drunk for the first time in a long time, for me, at least, and she's here again tonight. Last night I made us some Hamburger Helper...mmm mmm good hahaha. But tonight is a FEAST! I am preparing chicken parmesean! (In the toaster oven.)

I had to call my dad up before I started cooking, otherwise I'd screw something up, more than likely. So now it's cooking, I have half an hour left.

Before I went to work, Ashley told me she was going to do some shopping, head over to Wal*Mart and check it out, see some of the girls she used to work with back in Gillette, and whatnot. She also said she'd pick me up some toilet paper since I was out and forgot to get some myself...and she also bought me more milk, because mine expired a week ago, but I still used it to make my scrambled eggs this morning...hehehehe. If I get sick, we know why. She also bought me some plastic plates and forks/knives/spoons because she thought it was sad that I had to wash dishes before I ate/prepared anything, and that I shouldn't have to do that. Ha. What else...she did something else...Oh! Got some mozzerella, parmesean, and spaghetti sauce for dinner tonight.

I didn't think I was going to get to cook 'til about 10pm, but I got sent home early 'cause it was super slow due to the bad weather, we had WAY too many people up front than we needed to have (which is a first), and my sister was sitting in my apartment, bored out of her skull.

Also, my friend Adam sent me a bunch of Weezer covers by Japanese artists. It's awesome. Makes me laugh. "On an isrand in the sun, we'rr be praying and having fun!" Oh...cute. Thanks Adam!

ninety two

We took our Foundations of Theory & Reading midterm last week, and got to correct the T/F slash Multiple choice questions right after the quiz, but the essay questions had to be graded by her, obviously, so we got those back today. I got a 92% on it! YES! Finally, the first test that is for my major that I actually got a good grade on! I've been getting As in Astronomy and Philosophy, but I don't need great grades in those...just decent grades.

My sister is in town for the night. Needed to get away from the hometown, I think, and wants to do some bar-hopping here tonight. Fortunately I don't work 'til 1:30 tomorrow afternoon, so it'll be okay. She's over at Amy's right now. Don't figure she wants to come back over here and wait around for me to play trivia, watch Lost, and all that jazz. She hasn't seen Amy in a long time, anyway. It'll be good for 'em. Okay, so they say eachother a couple weekends ago...whatever.

I guess at work we're losing a lot of people, and gaining a lot of people. So that'll be nice because new blood is always welcome...especially when the old blood starts getting on my nerves.

Anywho, I was just really excited about my Reading midterm! She wouldn't let us take the tests home, though! She said they go in the shredder. I tried the approach of "This is the first good grade on a test I've gotten all semester, I just want to hang it up on my fridge" tactic, but she said, "Oh...TOUGH," and snatched it outta my hands. Hrmph. (She wasn't mean about it, that's just her nature, and that's just how things are...I knew I wasn't getting out of the classroom with that test in my hands.)

YAY!

Rob Thomas has a new solo album out!!!! I was watching VH1 before I headed off to class this morning, and there's this new video out. I can't tell if it's Rob Thomas or the guy from Three Doors Down 'cause of th angling of the knew the Three Doors Down guy has a solo album out, too.

I'm so freakin' excited. I've been in love with Rob Thomas since 7th grade. Now if that's not a crush, I don't know what is.

That's really all the news I have. AWESOME.

wes dream

Currently listening: "Run Through The Corn" By Jalan Crossland From 'Moonshiner'

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Last night I had a dream about Wes. As much as I hate to admit it, I'm still not over him. Although, if for some reason he called me up and said he wanted to start again, I'd say no...even though I miss him terribly, it's not worth it again. Anyway, onto my dream.

Wes had come to visit me, and I was staying at my parent's house instead of in my apartment. He had broken up with me a few days into his visit, but was still staying with us. He and my sister were in the kitchen at the table, eating breakfast, and I walked in to do some dishes. He was talking to me as though nothing had happened, and it was really pissing me off, and as I was scrubbing the pot in the sink, every word he said just made me more and more upset until I couldn't stand it anymore. I turned around and screamed something at him, but I don't remember what it was. He got up in a huff and went into the basement.

I tried to continue what I was doing, but couldn't concentrate, so I started making a grilled cheese sandwich, but couldn't do it, I was so upset. So I threw the chunk of Velveeta at the television in the kitchen and sat down at the table and cried. Then I went down to the basement to find Wes, thinking he'd be fuming and pacing around, but he was laying down on the floor with something covering his eyes to block out the light. I sat down next to him and told him about my explosion in the kitchen, and we talked for a little bit, and we walked back upstairs together, and thing seemed okay.

I woke up depressed this morning.

Movin' on up!

I talked to my landlady today and got an application for Jill to fill out so we can live together in a month or so. I'm really excited. We still don't have any couches or chairs or anything, and our Philosophy teacher is moving and has a bunch of stuff that he's trying to get rid of, but those articles don't happen to be part of his stuff. Also, the deposit I put down for this studio apartment will go towards the deposit needed for the 2 bedroom, so we just have to pay the difference, which turns out to be only $97.50 each. SWEET!

Aaron got sick all of the sudden last night/this morning. Woke up feeling all icky, and called me to see if I was sick, too, since we'd hung out last night at his apartment, but I feel fine and dandy...so I dunno. Hope he gets better soon. Besides, now I don't have anyone to go bug when I'm bored...

I have a Government test on Wednesday that I just found out about today, so I got the study guide for that today and will be studying later on...I worked on it for a while today, but my brain isn't functioning well right now.

It was cold and rainy this morning on the way too and from school, but now it's just cold and windy. And crappy. This kind of weather just makes me tired and not motivated for some reason. It's not like I even have to go out in it and be miserable...must be the quality of light that those clouds send through my window...makes me crabby. Maybe I'll take a nap. That seems to help.

werk

Friday night was my first night training up at the service desk. I only stayed until 7pm, so I wasn't trained on how to close the store. Then Saturday, Justin doesn't want to work service desk, and I don't really feel like straightening after a big ad weekend, so I switch with him and get my first crash-course in service desking all by myself. It was interesting, that's for sure. I got yelled at a bunch by Shirley, the softlines manager who doesn't even WORK up front several times. Once for eating an ice cream cone while I wasn't even on break. Psh. Buy one, get one free for TEN MINUTES only! I couldn't pass that up! Zack and I pooled our resources and got some ice cream, damnit. Then I got in trouble for EATING LUNCH in a 15 minute time span and not having anyone to cover the desk for me. Cripes. There were SO many customers in the store yesterday that I couldn't bother Justin to cover for me...that would have been rediculous. And we weren't that busy up front for the time being, so I took advantage of it.

Then I got in trouble for relaxing while Justin showed me how to close the store later that night. She said, "Andrea, I just don't think you're going to work out up here. You need to keep busy and keep your checkers busy." Well EXCUUUUUUSE me! First night on the job, I'm sorry I don't know every tiny detail of the job! CRIPES. Made me want to cry.

Then today at work, Shirley basically told me I wasn't fast enough in maintenancing (sorry if I spelled that wrong), so Zack was going to do it and I should cover service desk...which I'm not cut out for, apparently. Anywho...

I was helping a woman carry some bedding stuff back to Layaway and I had it on a 2-wheel dolly, but it was SO tall that I had to peek around the bed box, but I knocked it off the cart and it hit the shelves next to me, then fell to the floor, landing on my foot, with my big toe taking the brunt of the 5billion pound box. OMG it hurt soooo bad. My toe is still throbbing. I don't think it's broken because I can move it...but it sure doesn't feel good. Then, backing away while taking to someone, I ran into a shopping cart that was jammed into something else, and bashed my achilles tendon into the cart. Hurt. Pain. Wow.

Well, those are my last couple days balled up into a few paragraphs. Enjoy!

NEW WEEZER!!!!

Currently listening:
"Beverly Hills"
By Weezer
From 'Make Believe'
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YAY! Weezer has a new CD coming out soon! I'm nto sure when, but it's supposed to be more like their first couple of albums, and not so much like Maladroit, which was a piece of crap. And I love Weezer. But I love their old stuff. I'm really excited. Adam says that a radio station got ahold of their new song, "Beverly Hills" and leaked it on the radio early, it wasn't even supposed to be aired 'til after Easter! It's really good. Thanks Adam!

In other news, I started training up front at the service desk officially today. That was interesting. There's no mats to stand on behind the service desk and my back and feet start to hurt after a while. Glad I was only there for 5 hours. We've hired a buttload of new people, too, so that'll be good for us, I think. Instead of closing the store with Young Christopher Reeve Look A Like being the only checker for the last THREE HOURS. What are you thinking?! Some people.

Oh, I chopped off all my hair the other day. It's super cute. I can wear it curly, and it's REALLY curly. Everyone at work thought I got a perm...and I can wear it straight, obviously, and it looks really cute, too. Glad I did it. Wes liked girls with longer hair, so I was growing it out...no big deal, not like I was changing anything big in my life by doing that, but I like it shorter, so now I'm going to keep it shorter for a while.

Watched "This is Spinal Tap" with Aaron and his roommates last night with some pizza and Mt. Dew. It was a good evening. Great movie. Hadn't seen it in years. My mom bought it the other weekend, but it wasn't even out of the wrapping paper last week.

Well, I'm home from work at a decent time, so I think I'm going to do some dishes and make me up a porkchop and nuke a potato in the microwave. How long do you put a potato in the microwave for, anyway??

tut tut, looks like snow

Currently listening: "Big Horn Mountain Blues" By Jalan Crossland From 'Moonshiner'

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Well, we were supposed to get a crapload of snow today, and back home, they have quite a bit, but it hasn't quite hit us yet...not sure when it will, but I'm glad we're not going to Deadwood today like planned earlier.

I've been really getting into this cooking thing ever since my dad sent me home with a bunch of food. I still haven't found anything to do with the chicken breasts yet, but I haven't been to the grocery store to get stuff to make some parmesiany stuff, so it might just have to sit there for a little bit. But the pork chops and spaghettis are turning out well so far.

I finally picked up my guitar for the first time in almost two months, a little after I got back from seeing Wes the last time. I don't know why I didn't play it more...I might have been stressed with Wes and never talking to him anymore. Maybe stressed from a new semester starting up. Or maybe I just got bored with it. I didn't even play it when I got that new (left-handed) guitar tuner almost a month ago at Jalan's concert.

Looks like maybe we're starting to get some precipitation now. How fun.

apartment update

Currently listening: "Bosler" By Jalan Crossland From 'Moonshiner'

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Well, seems people just can't make up their minds...but I found out yesterday as I was heading out the door to my car that there IS a 2 bedroom apartment that just became available. The person won't be moving out 'til April and it will be available May 1st! So that means I'll be able to move in a week before Jill does, that way (like I'd hoped for), we won't be both moving our crap in at the same time. She'll have time to move her stuff in a week later, and then head home for some stuff, then back for most of the summer.

This is going to be so much fun. We're still trying to get her boyfriend to move in with us, 'cause this place is bigger than where he's staying right now, it'd cost us all a LOT less money, and he has couches hahaha. I'm really excited now. I just left a note for my landlady saying that we'd take it. It's on the first floor, so that means we don't get a balcony, but it's a little cheaper. That means I gotta move all my stuff down 2 flights of stairs, but when Jill moves her stuff in, we don't have to move it UP anything. So that'll be really nice.

I have a midterm this evening in Foundations & Theory of Reading, so I'm skipping the rest of my classes today (*GASP*) to study for it. I just needed to get a CD out of my computer, but had to turn it on to do so. Then it started making noises. I can't ignore it!

Anywho, back to studying. This test is gonna be weird.

snowing again

Well, over the last couple of days we've gotten a bit of snow, and that really sucks. It's cold and windy, but not bitter cold, so I guess I can live with it for a little longer.

Today was the first day back to classes from spring break. Didn't do a whole lot, but that's to be expected. I only had one midterm this semester, and that was in Philosophy. The teacher handed back the only A recieved in the class to this blonde girl who sits near the front at the beginning of class, and then at the end of class, we all went up and found our tests. Opened mine up, kinda scared as to what I got..."A-" baby!!! I was so happy. He said my first paragraph was a little weak, but I didn't know what else to write about Pythagorus, Hume, and Thales. Oh well. That's awesome, and I'm really happy about how well I did.

I only work until 8 o'clock tonight, and tomorrow night, so those are rather short shifts for me, but then next week, I start working shifts that are three hours longer! Yipes! A full 8 hour shift again...I'm sure not used to that...and not sure why they couldn't have given me some of those when it was spring break...oh well. I need the money.

I just found out yesterday that there are no more 2 bedroom apartments available in the building right now! I'm mad at myself for waiting too long to ask about it, but I wasn't sure if Jill was going to be able to afford it, so I wanted to wait 'til she got a job, but then she finally said that her mom would help her out, and I felt better about it and asked, but it was still too late. Damnit. I think I'm going to try to get a 1 bedroom, however because I'm really tired of no kitchen, no counters, no dishwasher, and having EVERYTHING I own reside in ONE room. Anyone looking for a roommate?

Anyhow, I guess I should finish up my lunch and get changed into my work clothes and work my lil' butt off. Adios!

spring break

Last night I hung out with Aaron and his friends at The Hyve, this loud bar with shitty music. I didn't recognize ANYBODY there except two girls I know from the sorority, but it's just weird how such a small town can have so many people I've never seen before. It probably doesn't help that I never went anywhere until just recently...

So we go to the bar, find a table, order some drinks, and start talking. Of course this mostly involves stories between Aaron and his friends, Henry and Josh, stories of stuff they'd done "back in the day," but it was a lot of fun to hear all the crazy shit they used to do.

Apparently Henry does not remember names well, so I will probably have some weird name like "girl with cool purse" or something like that. All of the guys are into comic books, zombie movies, video games, and other nerdly things, and apparently I'm not nerdy enough yet, but they'll get me nerded up soon enough, they say. Also, while I was in the bathroom at The Hyve, Henry gave me the thumbs up to Aaron and thought I was pretty cool...which I guess is hard to do because he doesn't like a lot of people, especially girls. So that made me happy. So did my three screwdrivers and one shot. It's been so long since I've drank that I had a headache this morning...man, what a lightweight. Good thing I'm a cheap date.

Anyway, it's been fun since Wednesday when I met Aaron and all his friends, the most fun I've had in a long time. Even when I went out with Wes and his friends, we didn't have this much fun...Wes seems so serious sometimes, and it's hard to get him to cut loose. Anyway, I'm not going to sit and compare apples to oranges because that's petty and doesn't do any good, but I've been having a lot of fun lately, and even though spring break is over now and I won't be going out as much, I think it'll still be better than before.

live from spearfish, it's wednesday night! (lame)

So Wednesday night, I decided that I was going to "drink away my sorrows" at the bar. I go to the only non-smoking bar, bring a book from my Foundations and Theory of Reading class (aka kid's book), order myself a wine cooler (no hard liquor in that bar), and some chicken bits. I then sat by myself and read my book. My book for a 6th grader. I don't know how long I was there, long enough to finish my drink and dinner, and order another drink. Then this guy walks up to me and asks me a couple of questions, loses interest, or thinks he's being blown off, and walks off.

A few minutes later, 3 chapters in, another guy walks up and pokes fun at me for coming to a bar by myself and reading and drinking. So he sits down, and we talk for a few hours. I give him a ride home because by the time we're done talking, the bar's closing and his ride has left him. Or so he says. I give him a ride home and we exchange numbers. He called me up this afternoon to go out to lunch, or to go out for coffee, but since I don't drink coffee and it was noon, I got lunch. So we talked some more, and he wasn't drunk, and I wasn't reeling from a break up, and it was good.

So I don't know what's going to happen there, but my first night out on my own and I actually found someone interesting to talk to. Pretty proud of myself. Don't know if I'm ready for anything serious, don't know what he's thinking, but we're probably going to do something this weekend since I don't work. Yessssssss.

work antics and me

We (Kmart) have started closing at 10pm now instead of 9pm. But for some reason, the computers over in wherever California are still hooked up to say that we close at 9pm, and half the lights and all the computers/registers except the ones up front close down...it was really weird. Anyway, I got off work at 9, Aaron still had another hour to go, so when I clocked out, I took some of the bicycles for a trip around the store and tried to run into Aaron. He didn't appreciate that.

I also stole his shopping cart he was using to put stuff back on the shelves, raced away from him and around a corner, and scared the crap out of a couple customers. And this was before I clocked out, so I still had my Kmart vest on. Whoops!

Jim, the hardlines manager, wanted to talk to me tonight about me wanting to go up and work at the Customer Service desk instead of out on the floor like I have been. Well, I need the money, and you get a raise for working up at the front desk, and I can't afford to take more hours, or my grades are going to drop. He wasn't real happy to hear about that, but we're losing 2 of our front desk people, so they need replacements, and there's a select few who are able enough to handle the service desk, and I'm one of them, and everyone knows that, but I'm also good out on the floor, and Jim doesn't want to lose me to the service desk. He claims that once I go up to the service desk, they'll never let me go back onto the floor, and he refuses to pull me off the service desk to go to the floor. Another manager claims that was his way of throwing a fit and he is kinda upset about it. But I need the money. Jim did say that if I did a good job up at the service desk, they'd try to speed up my raise that I'd get there from 90 days to something sooner. I really hope so!

I have this weekend off and will try my hardest to work on my portfolio. I think I'll try to go to the library or something and work on stuff...otherwise I sit in bed and fall asleep when I start writing haha. That's not good.

lousy piece of shit.

So. It's official. Wes and I are over. He broke up with me. Through a FUCKING EMAIL. I hate my life right now.

This is what he has to say:

"Today I was listening to that CD you gave to me, and it dawned on me, "hey, you've been an asshole". Sorry. First and foremost, I'm sorry. You deserved better, this is not the way I envisioned you and I.

Second, no excuses, but, these last four weeks have sucked for me, and my family. There is a lot of shit going on behind the scenes with us. Anyhow, I'm still sorry.

Thirdly, I guess if it's not concrete, then I'll make it so. I feel like resolution is the best thing in a situation such as this. If I wasn't forthright enough in my last email, then, this is it. I will not be corresponding any longer, I cannot. We, our relationship is just not economically feasible at this time, I have to devote too much time to other things. I have been out on a date or two, and I suggest you do the same, long distance relationships are wonderful, WHEN YOU'RE WITH THE PERSON. This last year has taught me a lot about myself, and how wonderful people exist outside of my "comfort zone."

Is it not better to resolve than to let linger? Is it not better to understand than to never comprehend? You are a great person, and one who deserves a wonderful person to complement them, I am not that person. In the past, you have told me about different guys you have dated, some whom have hurt you, and vice versa. If I hurt you, I am sorry. Take care, and God bless Andrea. I hope school works out for you, I hope you're family does well, I hope your sister blossoms into what she can and should be, and I hope you get out of Wyoming for your sake, there is a lot more out there. I hope Jill does well with her titties, and I hope that Amy gets a life outside that dude. Peace."

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back in spearfish

Currently listening: "Cherry Lane" By Jalan Crossland From the 'Romeo and Juliet' Soundtrack

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Well, the weekend at home was a good one. I got to try out the new air mattress instead of sleeping on the couch, and that was a lot better, I had a lot more room to roll around, even though Nermal didn't sleep on me this time.

Ashley bailed out on me and forgot to make an appointment for Nermal at the vet, so I didn't get my $10 from her. Curses. Also, I "borrowed" some of her mascara she left laying around the (very untidy) bathroom this morning and about poked my eye out. I knew there was a reason I don't wear the stuff.

Dad and I (Dad comes first because he did most of the work) made lobster tails, scampi scallops, and noodley stuff for dinner Monday night, and it was super delicious. I basically just pulled the tails out of the boiling water, cut their lil' fins off, and skewered them so they wouldn't curl up when Dad broiled them. When dad was showing me how to skewer them, however, he made it look more difficult than it actually was to penetrate the lobster's shell. So I about skewered my own hand in the process. Still have a red mark. Evil shellfish.

Dad also sent me home with a bunch of frozen meat; chicken, elk burger, and porkchops, along with spices so I can start making my own food instead of microwaving everything. I'm excited to try some stuff out! Wish me luck, 'cause I sure as heck don't know what I'm doing!

Tonight at work I bashed my knee on one of the bottom shelves in the pantry aisle when I was straightening stuff, and afterwards, every time I kneeled down to do something else and my knee would hit the floor, I'd get sharp sharp shooting pains in that knee. OUCH. I hope it goes away soon...I think it's going to bruise up quite nicely, though.

Mom took me out to lunch on Monday, and that was nice, 'cause I always have time to talk to Dad when I go home 'cause he usually comes home for lunch on weekdays, but I don't ever get to talk to just Mom, so that was fun :)

I've been listening to Jalan a lot, and I just love his music so much. When I email him, he replies really quickly, and is quite humourous about the ordeal. It's really cool to get to talk to someone so talented, and even better to get to talk to him in person when I go see him play, like a couple weeks ago when I went, and soon again in May when he'll be in Rapid City again.

Well, this is getting kinda long, and I'm sure most of you aren't even reading by this point, so I shall say adieu for now, and I will be back. G'night!

does this whole mad season got you down?

State Motto: Wyoming: Where Men Are Men ... and the sheep are scared!

Currently listening: "Mad Season" By Matchbox Twenty From Mad Season

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Well, home for a couple of days. I was driving home, listening to my MiniDisc, and Matchbox Twenty came on. One of my favorite bands, I've been a fan since their very first song, "Push." The song was Mad Season, and for some reason, it got to me. Not sure why, or what's going on, but here's the lyrics.

I feel stupid - but I know it won't last for long

I've been guessing - I coulda been guessin' wrong

You don't know me now

I kinda thought that you should somehow

Does that whole mad season got ya down

I feel stupid but it's something that comes and goes

I've been changin' - think it's funny how no one knows

We don't talk about - the little things that we do without

When that whole mad season comes around

So why ya gotta stand there

Looking like the answer now

It seems to me - you'd come around

I need you now

Do you think you can cope

You figured me out - I'm lost and I'm hopeless

Bleeding and broken - though I've never spoken

I come undone - in this mad season

I feel stupid - but I think I been catchin' on

I feel ugly - but I know I still turn you on

You seem colder now, torn apart, angry, turned around

Will that whole mad season knock you down

So are you gonna stand there

Are you gonna help me out

You need to be together now - I need you now

Do you think you can cope

You figured me out - I'm lost and I'm hopeless

Bleeding and broken - though I've never spoken

I come undone - in this mad season

Now I'm cryin' - isn't that what you want

I'm tryin' to live my life on my own

But I won't

At times - I do believe I am strong

So someone tell me why, why, why

Do I, I, I feel stupid

And I came undone

And I came undone

I need you now

Do you think you can cope

You figured me out - I'm lost and I'm hopeless

Bleeding and broken - though I've never spoken

I need you now

Do you think you can cope

You figured me out - I'm a child and I'm hopeless

Bleeding and broken - though I've never spoken

I come undone - in this mad season

In this mad season

There's been a mad season

Been a mad season

home again home again

State Motto: Wisconsin: Come Cut The Cheese

Currently listening: "Junk and Rocks" By Jalan Crossland From 'Moonshiner'

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Tomorrow when I get off work at 2:30, I shall be returning home! Lobster for dinner Monday night, fine company, and I might even get my sister to go to the bars with me. Are they open on Sundays? I have such a lack of a social life, I don't even know this anymore.

I have the BIGGEST pile of dirty dishes in my apartment. I think that there is not ONE clean dish in here! Besides my Kool-Aide pitcher, but I can't do a lot with that besides make Kool-Aide. And I don't have any glasses to drink it from! 'Cause they're all dirty! So I think I'm going to load them all up into a garbage bag (or two), except for the knife, that wouldn't be good, chuck 'em in my trunk, and take 'em home with me and use a DISHWASHER. What a concept.

I watched "The Notebook" last night finally. Freakin' depressing movie if I ever saw one. Not depressing in the sense that I don't have someone to do all that stuff with...just...depressing. Started crying 15 minutes into the movie, and several other times afterwards. Meh. wasn't impressed. But I'm not a big chick flick fan.

Got another email from Jalan, telling me he hoped I wasn't trying to learn guitar right-handed (he's left-handed, too), because you should pick your guitar with the same hand you pick your nose hahaha. Cracked me up. Then I told him about my stupid music teacher. Hope he gets a kick out of that.

Well, I'm going to try to make an early night of it. Work early tomorrow, then I'm going home. I think I'll take some caffiene pills to wake me up, 'cause I won't be able to function tomorrow...I napped today when I got home, so I won't sleep well tonight. Whoops. I was just so tired! I asked my manager if I could work less Sunday mornings, and so now I'm only going to be working every other Sunday morning, which is great, 'cause now I need a social life, and I can't do anything on weekdays, so weekends are a good time to do things...and when you work every weekend morning, you don't get to go out much. So hopefully this will help my emotional woes.

here we go again

State Motto: West Virginia: One Big Happy Family... Really!

Okay, I thought that maybe this template would show up on Explorer, but it's not. Mozilla Firefox, Safari, and Netscape (maybe Opera) are the only browsers I can get it to work on. Mozilla is an awesome web browser, MUCH better than what Explorer has to offer, so I would highly suggest downloading that. I downloaded it and used it ONE night and was hooked and will never turn back to explorer, except for the fact that I have to use it to update my Yapoo Avatar.

Anyway, sorry about all the changes, sorry about the inconvenience, just try out Mozilla, you'll be really happy you did.

Onto life's news: Today was my Philosophy final, like I'd posted earlier, and I didn't think he was serious when he said that it was going to take us the entire 50 minutes and then some to finish the test...but it did. I was racking my brain trying to remember all that crap, and I'm really glad I studied, 'cause shit, it was hard. I think I did well on it, I finished all the questions just as class was over, and I remembered everything. Of course, I thought that's how I'd done on my Government test, but we all know how well that went (and in case we don't, I got a C).

Going home Sunday afternoon when I get off work, spending Sunday night and Monday night at home, and I'll come back here on Tuesday before I have to be to work. My sister is paying me $10 to take her cat to the vet to get her shots because all Nermal does is yowl her little head off at the top of her little lungs the ENTIRE car trip, even when you're stopped at a light. Quite annoying. But I could use the money.

Also, I convinced Dad (finally!) to feed me lobster tails! He'll buy 'em, I have to cook 'em. But he's a kitchen nazi, so I'm pretty sure I'll only do half the work 'cause he can't stand to watch someone do it wrong. And lobster tails are expensive, so he's not going to let me screw 'em up haha. Those stupid Red Lobster "Lobsterfest" commercials have been making me crave lobster even more than before. It's been probably over a year and a half since I've had any.

Yesterday when I got tired of making my Philosophy study guide, I rearranged the small pieces of furniture in my room, so things are kinda categorzied now. I don't know if it gives me any more space, but whatever. I get bored really easily. I can't imagine what it's going to be like when Jill and I live together...we won't have enough furniture between the two of us to move around that much!

Also, I think this Wes situation is stressing me out more than I like to think, because all of the sudden my face is breaking out, and it never does that. Grr.

does Bambi get shot?

State Motto: Washington, D.C.: Wanna Be Mayor?

I was arguing last night with the people at work whether or not Bambi, in the 1942 Disney movie that has just been re-released, was shot in the film. Everyone insists that Bambi's mother and father were shot in the movie. Of course we all know his mother was shot. I don't remember him having a father, but I do remember Bambi himself being shot in the movie.

The forest is on fire, he's trying to save the woodland creatures, and he jumps over a cliff across a river, and is shot, midair, and lands on the other side of the river in a heap. You think he's dead, but alas, he is only wounded, and is able to escape the fire.

Now, nobody believes me, but I've been doing some research online, and have found several sources that say Bambi was wounded. I might have to rent it, just to make sure so I can rub it in the faces of my co-workers. Jerks.

They also say there is a Bambi 2, but I couldn't find one anywhere. LIES.

Anyone else remember Bambi being shot?

a sense of accomplishment

State Motto: Washington: Help! We're Overrun By Nerds And Slackers!

Currently listening: "Bed of Lies" By matchbox twenty From the 'Romeo and Juliet' Soundtrack

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I actually did HOMEWORK today! Amazing, no?? In a way, yes, but in a way no, because I skipped Philosophy haha. Oh well. I'm still pretty proud of myself. Got my assignment for class tonight done, worked on the study guide for the Philosophy midterm (yikes, a lot more in depth than I thought it was going to be). He also stated on his study guide that he made the tests impossible to finish within the alloted 50 minutes of class, so we would start class 5 minutes early, and could stay an extra five minutes late if need be. Yikes! And we're not allowed to leave before class is over, or he fails you. This is gonna suck.

Went to the cell phone place to lower my phone plan, since I don't need to use as many minutes anymore. I'd had to up it to a higher plan because I was talking to Wes all the time and going over my minutes and being charged rediculous amounts of money for the overages, so it was easier to pay an extra $10/mo than $50 if I went over. But now I don't have to worry about that anymore, so I went back down to the lower plan. Still have to pay an extra $5 each bill for caller ID and voicemail, but I need those, damnit. So I guess I'm really only saving $5/mo. Oh well. That was the lowest plan they could offer me.

Tomorrow is laundry/study/and maybe clean day over here. I left a note for my landlord about getting a 2 bedroom apartment next month or in May, so hopefully I'll find out about that soon enough. An apartment with a balcony would be nice, but Jill and I are both wondering what we're going to do for furniture, as I only have a folding table and folding chairs, and she has a weird scoop-shaped chair...no couches or coffee tables. Maybe I can steal something from home.

need a laugh?

Today was really awful.

I got out of bed really late because my alarm clock has broken and I cannot afford a new one at the moment.

I feel unusual because my antidepressants are making me hairy.

I'm so stoned.

I want to tell the world to get fucked.

Today, I got a digital camera! Yes! Here's ten thousand photographs of my cat.

I want to say thanks to my dad for giving me my own computer and digital camera. Here's a photo of my room.

The weather in Ontario is cold. I have nothing more to say.

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